Oh what a beautiful young woman.....what a beautiful spirit! I met Kara about a year and a half ago as the Band was trying out for the Battle of the Bands that led us to Pensacola. Her husband was in one of the other Bands that won the competition, and we had the honor of performing together at Unity Fest Pensacola! While we were there, Kara and I spent some time talking together. She truly has a beautiful spirit...it was quite evident to me. I asked Kara if she would share her testimony and she graciously agreed. As I was reading it, I began to realize why my heart was drawn to her. Although our testimonies are quite different.....there was a moment where they tied together with similarity. I felt her pain.......as so many others will too! God is going to use her in an incredible way....and I know that someone reading it tonight.....or whenever God puts it before their eyes.....will find freedom like Kara did! Kara......I could never thank you enough for sharing your heart........and for allowing God to work in an through you! May God bless all who read this beautiful testimony of Gods grace and redemption!
01/07/2013: Kara Sawyer
Ok... With fear and trembling.... Here it is.....
I was born into the house of a pastor. The ministry has always been a part of my life. From the age of two I was singing in church and doing kids choir and Christmas plays. I loved worshiping God!! My parents tell me that I would just sing and worship where ever I wanted too; back yard, shower, in the back seat of the car and many other places. When I was six I was molested by two of my cousins. This sparked a curiosity in me that would last years. At the age of 13 it happened again. A friend of my brother's, a guy that was 17 molested me. This messed me up. From that moment on I felt like I always needed a guy to validate me and I always needed a physical relationship with him. In middle school and early high school I was very boy crazy, often switching boyfriends several times a month. And I was "in love" with every single one of them. At the age of 17 I met a guy that swept me off my feet. I was so swept up that I lost my virginity, sadly to say, only three month after we began dating. After seven months this boy and I broke up and I was heartbroken! I had given this guy a piece of me that I could never be back and that just added to my devastation. While all of this was going on I was doing ministry at my church and "playing" church very convincingly. For the next several years I had several boyfriends but I never gave any of them enough of my heart to get hurt. At the age of 20 I began dating the man that would become my husband. I quickly realized what he would mean to me and began to run from him and my feelings. I ran from him for three years but could never get away from him. Towards the end of those three years that need for validation and physical relationship took a nasty turn. A guy I had known in high school started to show interest in me and for some reason he seemed to have some type of power over me. Well in a moment of weakness and need for validation I gave myself to him. After this I felt so dirty and ashamed. I just hoped that I could forget about it but that wasn't the case. My parents found out and I had to admit to them and others what I had done. It was the lowest I had ever been. I was removed from ever ministry position I held. I lost the trust of my family and some of my friends. Shortly after this I realized that I was oppressed with a spirit of lust. I once again had to deal with what I had done in order to get deliverance. So I did and God delivered me from it. Since then I have completely turned my life around. I began to truly seek after God and he restored to me my faith, my parent's and friends' trust and in all of this I did not lose who I would soon realize was my soul mate. God was so merciful and gracious. I know to some getting caught would ruin their lives but it was, looking back, the best thing that could have ever happened to me! I found out how big God's grace is!! Now, my husband and I serve in ministry together. We have a six month old son and God is doing amazing things in our lives!!
01/07/2013: Kara Sawyer
Ok... With fear and trembling.... Here it is.....
I was born into the house of a pastor. The ministry has always been a part of my life. From the age of two I was singing in church and doing kids choir and Christmas plays. I loved worshiping God!! My parents tell me that I would just sing and worship where ever I wanted too; back yard, shower, in the back seat of the car and many other places. When I was six I was molested by two of my cousins. This sparked a curiosity in me that would last years. At the age of 13 it happened again. A friend of my brother's, a guy that was 17 molested me. This messed me up. From that moment on I felt like I always needed a guy to validate me and I always needed a physical relationship with him. In middle school and early high school I was very boy crazy, often switching boyfriends several times a month. And I was "in love" with every single one of them. At the age of 17 I met a guy that swept me off my feet. I was so swept up that I lost my virginity, sadly to say, only three month after we began dating. After seven months this boy and I broke up and I was heartbroken! I had given this guy a piece of me that I could never be back and that just added to my devastation. While all of this was going on I was doing ministry at my church and "playing" church very convincingly. For the next several years I had several boyfriends but I never gave any of them enough of my heart to get hurt. At the age of 20 I began dating the man that would become my husband. I quickly realized what he would mean to me and began to run from him and my feelings. I ran from him for three years but could never get away from him. Towards the end of those three years that need for validation and physical relationship took a nasty turn. A guy I had known in high school started to show interest in me and for some reason he seemed to have some type of power over me. Well in a moment of weakness and need for validation I gave myself to him. After this I felt so dirty and ashamed. I just hoped that I could forget about it but that wasn't the case. My parents found out and I had to admit to them and others what I had done. It was the lowest I had ever been. I was removed from ever ministry position I held. I lost the trust of my family and some of my friends. Shortly after this I realized that I was oppressed with a spirit of lust. I once again had to deal with what I had done in order to get deliverance. So I did and God delivered me from it. Since then I have completely turned my life around. I began to truly seek after God and he restored to me my faith, my parent's and friends' trust and in all of this I did not lose who I would soon realize was my soul mate. God was so merciful and gracious. I know to some getting caught would ruin their lives but it was, looking back, the best thing that could have ever happened to me! I found out how big God's grace is!! Now, my husband and I serve in ministry together. We have a six month old son and God is doing amazing things in our lives!!
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