As I sit and look at this picture, my eyes just fill with tears! When I went to the facility where Mrs. Mary lives, I was filled with so many emotions. My heart breaks because I can only get there about once a month due to the cost of traveling. I went to see my first patient and she was able to wake up enough for me to talk to her for a few moments, but she was just too tired to stay awake. When I was getting my paper signed, I asked about my next patient because I had only seen her once and I could not remember where her room was. This is when my heart broke.......she had died just four days after my first visit with her. Her smile and laughter left me with a memory that will stay with me for many days to come. She had the sweetest little giggle! I was so excited about getting to see her......only to find out that the next time I get to see her is on the other side of life. As I went to see more of my patients, I found several of them were in a much worse state that I had seen them in a little over two weeks ago. My mind went to the thought that I might not ever see them again because it will be so long before I get back.....my heart was broken. Mrs. Mary, who is pictured above.....was in such a sweet and precious mood! This lifted my spirit as there was music playing and she was pseudo dancing! At first her speech was muffled, but before I left.....we were talking and smiling.......and she told me that she loved me.......does it really get any better than that? You see.....it is always my hope to be a blessing......but by the time I leave, I am far more blessed than I could ever have believed! Each one is so precious.....each one brings such joy and peace to my heart! The only man that I have right now.....we hold some of the most bizarre conversations due to the fact that he has Alzheimer's. We start with one topic and cover about 10 different conversations in a matter of 5-10 minutes! I always ask him if he fixed something today and of course he has! hehehe, I love him so much! I wish I could move them out near me so that I could see them everyday......but alas.....that is not possible. For those of you who pray......I ask that you will keep me and my patients in your prayers. First, pray that if they have a need.....I will be able to do what God wants me to do to fill that need both spiritually and emotionally! Second, pray that God will help me as I see my friends slowly slip away. I need your prayers that I can always do what God wants me to do....and that somehow.....they will find great peace as they prepare to meet our AWESOME GOD!!!!!!
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