Mercy Ministries is heavy on my mind today........as I sit and thank God for so many things, I see Chelsea today eating things I thought she would never eat again......and for that I am oh so thankful!
Just a little over 5 years ago Chelsea graduated from the program at Mercy Ministries. Prior to Mercy we thought we were going to loose our child forever. Even after graduation, she struggled to find that place of wholeness and total healing. What she did get from Mercy was a foundation.....a firm foundation that would in time lead her to a total change in her life! Not only would it change her life, but also the life of another woman who found out about Mercy because of a mutual friend! Now she is finding hope and healing in her life as well! Mercy has helped hundreds if not thousands of young women find healing in their lives for so many different issues that women these days find themselves trapped in! Some are self inflicted......and some are situations that they were placed in by the ones who were supposed to love and protect them.......oh what a world we live in at times! Mercy Ministries holds a giant piece of my heart! Whenever I am giving the testimony of SHINE, I am filled with the memories and the love I have for Mercy. It never fails, each time I give the testimony.......someone comes to me and thanks me for showing them there is hope! Mercy alone is not the hope.....the hope is in Christ and Christ alone......Mercy teaches them this! Mercy shows them their value in Christ......shows them Gods Unconditional love for them.......leads them in the ways of God and gives them clear, concise direction to the cross! I will forever be grateful to the day that I go home to be with Him........I will forever be thankful for Mercy and how they played an important part in not only Chelseas life, but in the lives of our family! I pray that if you know anyone who could use help to heal their hearts.....you will send them to my links page to get information.....or if you want to support a ministry that makes a difference......a HUGE difference.....please check out my links page! May God bless you all!!!
I did my duty voting.......I voted my conscious.......so now I chose to relax and not worry because GOD is in control! I have attached the song SHINE along with our testimony, so that I can be reminded of what God can and will do.....May God bless you as
Shine is a song that is so near and dear to my heart. Most coming here will know what it is about, but for those who don't......let me fill you in. Just over 9 years ago, our family was taken on a journey that no parent wants to take. Chelsea, our youngest daughter (10 at the time) developed OCD and severe anxiety. We took her for help, but to nothing helped. When she was 13 years old, it morphed from OCD to Anorexia.....in a really big way. Over a period of 2 years she was in the psych ward of two hospitals, one in-patient program in Arizona for three months, went to several different doctors and psychologists, psychiatrists, counselors, and nutritionists.......all to no avail! At the age of 14 we were told that there was nothing more that they could do with out patient care, and the insurance company said (in all of their wisdom) that she did not need in-patient care because she was not under 15 BMI. She did go below 15 for a month so they allowed her to go to one of the hospitals and paid for it until she hit 15 BMI and then dropped the insurance....and her doctors were furious! At 65 lbs......our baby girl was dying.....not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually......she was already dead inside! Now to go back a bit.....after telling us there was no more they could do, her doctor told us about Mercy Ministries. It was a long-shot because Chelsea had to apply herself and do ALL the work herself to get in. This made my heart drop because she looked at me and said, "Well, that's not gonna happen.....because you can't make me go!" My heart broke and I cried for days......what were we gonna do? She was wasting away physically......she was full of hate and spewed bitterness and anger leaving us feeling COMPLETELY helpless! God had provided us with so many people praying for Chelsea......all over the world! We prayed......and God answered! One day she looked at me and said, "I am gonna go.....so people will leave me alone and I can get you off my back!" Now at this point.......I did not care what her motivation was.....I was just thankful she was ready to do the work! We found out later that she was planning on just playing the game so she could get us off of her back......but God knew! It took six months from the time she applied to the day she went in......the trick was keeping her alive during that time! It was during that time that she was hospitalized for several weeks.....til insurance quit paying. At Mercy, it was a long hard process and she wanted so badly to come home. She played the game for almost three months.......and then.....God broke her defiant spirit! For the next two months she got better and better.....and then......she graduated on her 15th Birthday! There have still been hard times, but her will to live and to get better was now there! The song SHINE was written by Caleb when we took him to a Mercy Fundraiser where he saw with his own eyes how lives were being changed......he saw the hope that 25 young women had after going through the program......and the song SHINE was then born! I have the honor of giving a testimony before the band sings it, and I also have the honor of singing with them in this song! God is such an incredible and amazing God! Now......Chelsea is at Toccoa Falls College getting her degree in Christian Counseling......so that she can help bring others to the realization that Christ is the answer.....and help them find it! May God bless you and if ANYONE has any questions.....please, please feel free to ask! If you need information about Mercy, please go to my links page and you will find the link you need!
As you may have read in my Days of Praise, today my heart has been quite heavy. I am pretty good at dealing with the burdens of life and having faith that God will take care of it all......but some days it is sooooo hard to see! Yesterday when I was visiting the nursing facility, one of my patients was in a common area of her hall. As we sat and talked, I realized her health had declined quite a bit since the last time I saw her. My heart was broken because as we talked her responses were more slow and labored than I have ever seen them. I asked her if she would like me to sing to her and responded quickly with a "YES". I started with Amazing Grace.....and she perked up a bit. We then went on to I'll Fly Away, Old Rugged Cross, and the In the Garden. I tried to sing quietly as to not disturb the others. I said goodbye and I was able to give her a kiss on the forehead and told her I loved her.....then started to leave. As I was walking over to the doorway a gentleman in a wheelchair said, "Ma'am, that was beautiful". The two ladies sitting at a table near him asked me if that was me singing and reiterated the same. I apologized for singing too loudly and they asked me to sing something with them. We sang a few songs and one of the ladies told me she wanted me to sing In the Garden at her funeral.....of course I am sure she was just talking, but I told them that next time I come I will bring a hymnal and we will sing together again. As I sit and reflect over the time I spent with them......I am left with something that has been tearing at my heart for years. I love to sing......it is in my blood.....it is in my heart.....it is in every fiber of my being, but why? At one point in my life I started to notice that my reasons for singing had got cloudy......and God took away my opportunity for almost 10 years! I NEVER want to sing for the wrong reasons and that is the reason I tried to sing so quietly. I long with everything that is in me to sing for the Lord, and sing a song that God has given me. I want to sing a song that comes from that place in my life that pours out of my heart.....the story of what God has done in me........and yet, it does not come. Maybe it is not my time.......maybe God has more story for me to tell that I have not lived yet.......maybe I am not at the place that I can be trusted to sing for exactly the right reason. I don't know........but I do know this, as much as I love to sing, I would rather never sing again than to not sing for the glory of God! God has given me such an incredible blessing by managing the band and for that I am so thankful! Being surrounded by music and singing is such a blessing to my heart! I pray that someday......God will give me a song from my heart.....that I might be able to give ALL HONOR, ALL GLORY AND ALL OF ME TO HIM!